Do you remember…? Do you remember who you were in school? I do I remember all to well who I was in school. I was the lost little girl who did so much to please everyone she came across. With 3 years of being out of school not much has changed. Although I am a bit older, I am still lost and still not living my own life. I have been living behind in the shadows of my mother and of a lot of others who I have come across over the years. My life is not mine, I have somehow have abandoned my life for the life of others. I do not want that anymore! I do not wish to settle, I know I can take back my life and make is grand! Now the question is how does one go about doing that? I want to live my life without regret and I do not want to be the one everyone forgets. I have so many things I want to do, but I do not know how to go about doing anyone of those things. I would like to travel the world, take pictures, be loved by someone, and live life my own way. Why is it that when you want so many things nothing seems to happen? I feel as if I am stuck in the same hole I have been stuck in for the past who knows how many years. I am never satisfied with my life I have not quite understood how or why I am that way. I have a job I should be fine with it, but I am not I hate it. I do not think I should be doing what I do I need to be out doing my own thing. But yet again I must please everyone I come across when I think about quitting I think about who I will be leaving behind. I would also like to move move far far away. But when I think about it the more I think that it would be so much easier to just stay and settle. That is what I am the most afraid of, settling I can not settle for just the “whatever it takes to get by” method of living. It make work for some, but it is not something I want to see myself doing. I think its more the desire to achieve something greater than me, than my life. If I can change the way someone looks at the world through one of my photos or even my way of conducting myself I will be living my life the way I want. I used to tell my mom that one day I was going to change the world, and I have lost sight of that alone my way to finding out who I am. But now I see that I want to take back my life and help change the world…!
First one and not into blog mode at the moment.
Okay so my Pammy made this and well I may use it more than myspace . I haven’t been too much into bloging mode lately so I will just get you up to speed with my life. Well I am in school at the moment majoring in Biology as well as taking a wildlife Photography class. I will be posting some pics up.
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